bryndel: (beware of skwerl)
First week and already some days I'm having trouble dragging myself out of bed. Sad, ne? That's part of the fun of depression I guess. Compound that with the fact that my two more difficult science classes are not just difficult, but also possibly ones I should have delayed until *after* I retook Organic Chem (UGH) and started Biochem... yeah. >.<;; Not really looking forward to this semester--and then on top of that I have part-time work. Admittedly, getting a little bit of steady income is good, and also, it's actually very lazy, easy work which is flexible with my school schedule-- but yargh, it's not like something I can sleep through and that makes Tuesdays in particular REALLY long days, involving work in the morning and then my pathophysiology class until 8:30 or so at night. Gah. @.@ I was literally falling asleep in it this week... gotta figure out some sort of caffeine or *something* for next week. Something that won't
On the other hand, tonight's lecture was much better than Tuesday's--we're doing review stuff, theoretically, but zomg the first day of patho did NOT feel like review. And then on top of that, my Microbiology teacher hands us a review sheet for o-chem stuff and more ("here, label these molecules according to structural group!") and AAAAAGGGHH do not want. And this isn't even going into the ungodly reams of paper these classes are asking me to print out on top of the usual horribly expensive books--and my printer isn't hooked up and working atm, and dad's printer is so skwerled up atm that I cannot trust it to print anything readable. I predict much tearing out of hair very soon, what with one thing and another.

On the other hand, it appears I got A's in both my summer classes, which is surprising but good. Now I just need to get my schedule under control and figure out some way to find the time and energy to start volunteering again, along with the internet reliability to keep up with my posts for my RPG sites. Posted a couple of things today and about to do another, though, yayz. Honestly, scheming about RP and writing stuff was the only thing that got me out of bed this morning, er, afternoon... I really need to find some way to keep doing it regularly despite (or even because of) all the craziness of RL around me.

Thank the powers that be for my Ellenkitty as well, who is mewing cutely and doing her maximal-in-the-wayness flop as she curls up on my chest as I write this. ; 0-P She and my little ratlings are doing well, at least. I'm still really missing my old dog, though, in particular, and pining for a new one. I miss all my old pets far too much still. My birthday this year sucked, meh--I didn't give my parents the birthday list they requested because, well, honestly, the two things I REALLY wanted I knew I was not going to get: a new dog and to get the hell out of this place and move into a space of my own.
I'm trying to change my perspective and look at it with a view of, well, I probably won't be here for my NEXT birthday, so that means less than a year to go, but... I still have trouble seeing the light at the end of the tunnel a lot of the time, to be honest.

Eep!

Jul. 30th, 2010 01:17 am
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I know, I know, I keep thinking about the post I need to make here, and then not making it. ;.; I blame school projects and oncoming finals! Yes, it's that time of year again. I'm sorta regretting taking summer classes at all--mainly the psych one, though, I guess, since the animal training class has actually proven QUITE cool and even gave me an excuse to buy the updated version of probably my favorite training book--woot, Don't Shoot the Dog is the cheapest but also the AWESOMEST textbook evar. Although my intro to psychology and psych of human sexuality texts are also pretty good (but more "textbooky" in form), admittedly. X 0-)

In other news, the tempting bait of WWS dangling before me has proved too tasty a lure to resist. I'm still trying to figure out where/what I'm gonna do with Bryndel--her dad's gone, so now I'm eyeing up Sleepy Fox Hollow, Winterheart Forest, Silver Creek, or Mount Firefly as a likely substitute, but I'll probably wait and see where things settles after the Plateau arsonists are finished, heh. *taps fingers* I hope I won't regret this, but I think I won't. RP may be hard to keep up with when school revs up--and if I ever get back to vet school, I'll almost certainly have to quit--but WWS has been a lovely beacon of light in what is still a very dark existence for me right now. I think it may take a combination of my boyfriend, my cat, and the Salvajes to keep me even (somewhat) sane, heh. >.<;; As it is I've been flipping out entirely too much with school, and alarming classmates when I occasionally fail to get ahold of myself in time and come into class crying.

Anyhow, I'm tired now so I'm still not gonna post about the pupperdogs where I just started volunteering. With school I haven't been back yet anyway--might make it there this Sunday, but more likely not. When vacation rolls around for a bit I should hopefully be able to make it there a lot more, but I dunno about when fall semester starts; the time and energy may prove even more difficult to find then.

Yeeeeek.

Jul. 22nd, 2010 02:32 am
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Well, yeah, I'm at boyfriend JP's and online, but I'm so wound up right now that I don't feel up to posting much of an update. Just...aaaahhhh... stress, stress, soooo much stress.

I have people I need to call, and my big psych project and presentation tomorrow. I meant to work more on the latter and get the former done today, but mrah. I think I need to play some computer games instead--and I am not at all joking when I say "need," unfortunately. The tension in my shoulders actually hurts right now.

I think this mill dog rescue volunteering is looking to turn out fairly well, though. I may even switch my classes for the fall around to the campus near there, which is closer than I thought and seems to do a lot of horsey stuff and might have some things that would be good for the "vet school resume" and more of a "fun" class to boot. But I am NOT going to worry about it right now. Probably not even anytime this week, and maybe not next week either. *rubs shoulder* Urgh. Classes are likely to be full up by now anyway--I wish I'd realized that Falcon campus was closer than the downtown and so-far-south-it's-halfway-to-the-next-city campuses much earlier.

Squee.

Jul. 16th, 2010 04:30 am
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I am so jazzed that WWS has added a Facebook group, and now a Dreamwidth thingie apparently too. Now if only I could remember my password... X 0-D

I'm laying in bed with some stomach ickiness--funny how the presence (even the online presence) of friends makes me feel a whole lot better anyway. ^^ I wish the stupid internet connection here wasn't so darn unreliable, but the hijinks it was giving me last week have me convinced it's smartest to wait until I have something better before I rejoin my favorite RP board. Last week seemed to be the curse of the computers, actually, all around--my USB drive fried and I lost some of my schoolwork and then the printers went wacko at home AND at the school computer lab AND in the school library. W.T.H. I was already despising this school project for a lot of other reasons, and now this. I am ready to be DONE, I tell you, done!!

Anywho, a bit of breathing space now before we have to present on our topic, and for that I just have to help polish up the essay and whip up some Powerpoints and a speech. Classes this summer are developmental psychology (actually called human growth and development, but same diff) and animal training. I could probably ace the training quizzes with my eyes closed but I'm behind on the actual training part--starting to wonder if maybe I should have gotten slightly older (and thus hopefully less distractable and more mature) rats to train, but ah well. Firethroat and Lightfoot are cute, and a lot better socially than my first rats, who were from a pet shop (but not quite so wonderful as my last rats from a better breeder, to my disappointment. I'm coveting better-bred rats for adoption I see listed online now... almost as much as I'm coveting a new dog).

In any case, it's turning out to be a rather stressful and unrestful summer. Not to mention hot. But it's almost over... and I'm trying not to worry about the larger load of classes I'm supposed to take in the fall. But right now two classes seems more than enough, which feels rather...pathetic. Meh. Ah well. I've still got some health kinks to work out, but one way or another I'm feeling like I need to spend more time on more fun and social stuff, despite the amount of time I do spend harassing my boyfriend (with whom I've been almost a year and a half now...gasp. Very strange to think). Hoping the volunteering stuff I'm starting up tomorrow is going to help with that.

Orientation tomorrow at National Mill Dog Rescue. : 0-) We'll see how it goes. ..and ah, skwerls, I still need to print off my paperwork for that... eep! Time to run upstairs and do so, and maybe grab something to hopefully settle my stomach while I'm at it. ...As soon as I get the purring, attention-starved kitty off of it, anyway. X 0-)

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